Saturday, September 18, 2010
I am hurt...
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Tomorrow
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary...
i miss you
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Untitled...
My love for you runs deep….
So deep that I’d do anything in my power just to keep you..
From leaving me…
I don’t know what it is about you that I’m drawn to…
I can easily withdraw from you…. physically…
But what is this hold you have on me…emotionally.??
I should have seen it coming from the very start…
A hold so strong that even I can’t reach my own heart…?
And here I sit,
Crying..... so much that half the time I don't even realize it
I’m running this race and yet my tears fall short of the mile.
I keep asking myself
In the end, will all of this hurt be worth while?
They say love is pain,
But it should be only for love in which you have something 2 gain.
Do I...?
I suppose that…
Its just my nature to second guess
Things that seem to stress me. The most.
What are these feelings?
This shit makes no sense to me,
With you is where I always thought I was meant to be…
Did I sell myself short?
All these questions, I want and need the answers to…
I’m drowning again, going under…
It is this way because my heart is torn asunder….
And to my misfortune….YOU hold all the pieces.
Why……..?
Happiness is no where in sight…
I don't understand because I feel as if I’m doing everything right
Or am I not…?
Second guessing myself once again
Because I’m realizing I fucked up when I let you in…
And Damn…
Now you have a part of me that's not rightfully yours…
But you see, Its my own fault, because when you knocked…
I didn't think about it I just opened the doors….
Just let you walk into something you shouldn't have been welcome to
Something I shouldn't have just given to you…
So freely. So mindlessly.
Because now I’m paying the price
If I’d known this before hand, I would have thought twice.
I was so ready…
Ready to give wholeheartedly,
But never expecting to lose sight of whats most important.
Me…
Patience, I once had…
Now its wearing thin, and I’m afraid
Because I’m fighting a battle that I know for I fact I can't win.
So why haven’t I put down my hands…?
I’m weak, and I’m weary…
Nothing left in me.
Drained of all feelings I once had
Nothings there, just numb.
This wouldn't be, if to you I hadn’t succumb.
Not just to you, but to the bottle too…
It is only after a few glasses do I find serenity…
And when my cup gets empty, reality hits me…
So I keep my cup full…
Drowning away in my sorrow
With no desire to see tomorrow….
But I do, and the pain strikes again….
Only this time harder than before,
Everyday getting closer 2 the point where, I jus can’t take it anymore….
But I’m still here….
Why…..?
That question I fear will never be answered.